I have always had similar dreams, always have similar plots,back to school, didn’t finish the homework, the upcoming college entrance examination, haven’t finished the test paper, wrote the wrong answer, the teacher was about to leave,the test papers bag has been encapsulated, I went severe anxiety, then a desperate, then woke up from that dream. I think I did make some wrong choices, then another wrong choice, and then another wrong choice. Unconsciously, or even worse, in every moment every minute that I can feel, the years are wasted and I am getting old. These dreams feel so real, the anxiety is so heavy, seem to overwhelm me, however after wake up, all the wrong choices have some correct reasons, all of the faults are worthy of such forgiveness, life still need to continue. I think I just need to make some new decisions.

这些年我总是做类似的梦,总是相似的情节,回到中学时代,没完成的作业,即将到来的高考,没做完的试卷,写错的答案,即将离去的监考老师,已经被封装的试卷袋,手忙脚乱的我,极度的焦虑,然后是几近绝望,再然后从梦中惊醒。我想我确实是作过一些错误的选择,然后是另一个错误的选择,再然后又是一个错误的选择,不知不觉,或者更糟的是,在可以感知的分分秒秒里,岁月被虚耗,我即将老去。这些梦的感觉如此真实,梦里的焦虑如此沉重,似乎要把我压垮,然而醒来之后,所有错误的选择都有正确的原因,所有的错都值得被原谅,生活依然要继续。我想我只是需要作一些新的决定。